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Have no motivation to blog, and nothing special to blog about. This blog is semi-officially dead until I feel like reviving it... Which will be a long time more to come.

P/S: Procrastination i hatez uuuuuuu D8

HAHA

Sem break's finally here! Well, not exactly, since there's still 2D Animation to complete. But I can finally relax now! XD




Errr. Yeah. My CCD final. Trees are the main characters. XD

Ishhhh

Peer power. A force of nature indeed. Am trying not to succumb to it. Be strong! I will be strong.

Ended up sleeping wayyyyyy to early and waking up wayyyyy to late. Result: Cartoon Design no touchy, 2D Animation lagi no touchy, handing up everything by tomorrow.

Am I in trouble? YES.

Just another two days. I can do it. I can do it. I CAN DO IT. T_T

Why does the dreaded holiday mood affect me so strongly just when it's all about to be over. T_T

Night of the roaches

Add 4 baby roaches to my number of kills, which is uncountable (to me, at least).

Yes, I know they're just baby roaches. Yes, I know they're the light brown species which aren't as frightening as the ominous black ones.

But yet, I feel so accomplished. XD

Hrmmmmm

I'm in such a holiday mood already, though there's still about a month of the semester left.

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet?

Now?

How about now?

Now?

Now?

Now?






... Are we there yet? DDDDDDDD8

Aha. Aha. Ahaaaaaa. :>

It's 9.10pm. Cartoon design due tomorrow morning. I HAVEN'T STARTED A SINGLE SKETCH AT ALL. 8DDDDDDDDDD

I'm just. So brain dead this time.

It's 9.12pm. Typography due on Saturday morning. I HAVEN'T FINISHED MY WEB LAYOUT. 8DDDDDDDD

I'm just. So strung out over trying my best at Typography and failing.

It's 9.14pm. Robot design due Monday, have to scan by Saturday. I HAVEN'T INKED OR MARKER RENDER MOST OF WHAT I HAVE TO. 8DDDDDDDDDD

I'm just. So sick and tired of robot already.




Can I just quit? 8DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Erghhhhh

I'm so sleepy. So, so, sooooo sleepy. And ironically, not because of lack of sleep but rather because of too much sleep. =w=''''

Slept from near 1am till 8am, which is A LOT compared to the usual 3-4 hours the past few weeks. I guess my body's not used to all the changes, cause I had to take a nap after lunch as I was too drowsy. And I've wasted so much precious time, grrrrrrr.

Sigh. The super early holiday mood is killing me. I just feel so lazy to do my work. I need more drive!!! >A<

...

I am lost. SO lost for typography. I have absolutely no idea what to do, I'm just wandering aimlessly online, trying to come up with something I can work with, all the while fretting and stressing about deadlines and trying to overcome my own expectations.

Can I just drop typo? Please? I hate it more than I hate Moral.

Seriously. Why?

I opened my mail just now. A highschool friend of mine sent me an email. Which contained a few pictures of a rape and murder victim. To read about these cases in the newspaper is totally different from actually seeing the pictures of the real corpse.

It was horrifying. Just absolutely appalling that these sick, depraved psychos will do this to innocent women, just to get high on adrenaline. What kind of monsters are they, that they don't even feel a thing about taking someone's life, to see the person suffer so much pain, to actually be holding the weapon and feel it slice into tender flesh, to see all the blood spurting out, to hear her screams, without feeling anything at all?

Her throat was brutally slashed. It was just a mess of darkened blood and mangled flesh, with the blood marks splattered all over her chest. Her face was expressionless, no contortion of pain, nothing. The skin was already turning grey. Her arms, they were sliced open to the bone in places. To see the gaping wound, to see bits of flesh falling out of the cuts, it's horrible.

Why do such monsters want to cause so much hurt to people they don't even know? These men who don't even deserve to be called men, tell us women, why?

To atheists or people who prefer to believe in the abilities of humans. I don't understand how you can prefer to believe in humans who cause this kind of pain. I don't understand how you can prefer to trust in humans who are just so easy to influence, so easy to deviate. Just because someone was nice in the beginning, there is no guarantee that person won't turn bad in the rest of his/her life. Your best friend can turn into your worst enemy. Just a wrong word, a wrong influence, and the person becomes a monster. How can you prefer to believe in humans, who are bound to sin at least once in their lifes.

I know that to some people, believing in God is useless because to them, God just watches all these kinds of depravity and violence and evil without helping, without offering divine intervention. But how can you expect Him to do anything when you won't even allow Him into your lifes? How can you expect Him to just change the situation with a wave of His hand and perhaps a sprinkling of magic dust, to make everything go away?

Religion is essential. By religion, I mean the true ones that have good values. Not philosophical "religions". Good religions teach good values, and sticking to these values can surely make the world a much better place, regardless of which religion you choose to adopt, instead of believing in the human thinking which is just so weak compared to God.

Okay, I'm just sounding preachy here, but the main thing I want to express here is my shock, horror and disgust at the utter depravity of some humans. I can't even go a day without worrying about my loved ones, being paranoid that something may happen to them not because of an accident, but because of human evil nature. How can I not worry?

The power of imagination

The mind can really conjure up the scariest things. That's why I hate horror movies, because every scene sticks in my head and replays by itself, involuntarily, every time I walk through total darkness in my home to get a glass of water. I don't even have to watch movies or actually SEE the scary thing to imagine how it looks like.

One example.

I was swimming at the deep end of the pool. Then I looked down at the bottom of the pool. And I imagined a horrible, absolutely terrifying colossal water monster looming there, swimming towards me. And I actually felt scared, heart pounding and all, and swam as fast as I could to the shallow end.

... I will die 10 years earlier for having active imagination I tell you. I'll get heart attack from the stuff my brain comes up with. XD

Ergh. Ergh. Errrrrrrghhhh.

Dang it, two more days till hell drags me down! I feel so reluctant to go back to college when I think about the assignments we're gonna face. T^T

Anyway.



Go to my DeviantArt account if you're interested in who these people are. If not, don't bother. Am so the sien of colouring it that I just gave up on the table and background. XD

=.=

I may as well tell you guys la. I has a DeviantArt account. Since two years ago in fact. Didn't submit cause I didn't have scanner/Photoshop/tabbie (eleh banyak je exuses). So yeah. Nothing much there since I've already posted up here what I submitted. Just letting you guys know lah.

http://decembertiggerx.deviantart.com

>.<

Yeaah. Practised more Photoshop. Err, I dunno what to put in the background so I left it blank... My skills do not permit me to do anything more! XD

I wish the sem break will never end, haha. I feel so lazy, just thinking about the workload we're gonna face in two weeks makes me want to puke blood. Though I haven't really been doing anything productive actually. Eating, sleeping, TV, Internet, those don't count as productivitiy do they? XD

Anyway. Wanna recommend this game to you guys! It's a click-and-select game called Alter Ego in which you start your life as a baby and play out your whole life anyway you want! The outcome will be different depending on your choices (You can get murdered, teehee). But this game is quite time consuming. You're allowed to skip some life stages but that means you'll miss out on events and happenings that affect your outcome.

http://www.playalterego.com/alterego

A word of warning: The choices you make are permanent (cannot click on the "back" button to change your choice!), so don't rush while choosing your options. I regretted many things I chose. T_T

Tag...

First tag I'm doing, thanks to Win Loon. =_=

To do:
1. Visit http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
2. Type in your name
3. Sloganize after each questions
4. I takde orang nak tag leh... =.=

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Only Jo Anne Has The Answer (eleh perasan XD)

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
Life Should Taste As Good As Jo Anne (O.o please... Keep that thought to yourselves)

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Splash Jo Anne All Over (dunno what that's supposed to mean =_=)

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Where's The Jo Anne? (=.=)

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
Let Your Jo Anne Do The Walking (whoot I'm the pushy kind 8D)

6. To someone you dislike?
Made To Make Your Jo Anne Water (what da toot =.=)

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Whenever There's A Snack Gap, Jo Anne Fits (O.o)

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
You Can't Get Quicker Than A Jo Anne Fitter (yeah mum, dad, I was out exercising! be proud of me!)

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
Strong And Beautiful, Just Like Jo Anne (you see? I don't let failure get in my way. XDDD)

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
The Too Good To Hurry Jo Anne (yeah I like to take things slowly 8D)

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Jo Anne - It Does A Body Good (OMG no way am I that despo =.=''''''')

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
They Drink Jo Anne In The Congo (even if I'm an asshole people still need me XD refer to question above)

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Make It A Jo Anne Night (I.... I'm speechless... O.o)

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Get More From Jo Anne (nuuuu I'm not easy! OAO *doesn't help that I keep accidentally typing Ho Anne =.=, thanks for making H next to J on the keyboard!*)

15. Your last words before you die...
Challenge Jo Anne (I'm a FAITER! 8D)

16. Your message to a special someone..
Wait Till We Get Our Jo Anne On You (is that supposed to be threatening? XD)

17. Title of this post will be...
Schhh... You Know Jo Anne (O RLY? 8D)

... Speechless. XD

More Photoshop testing

The fab four of FMA. Wait no. I don't like Winry but she's easy to draw (Girls are always easy to draw, full stop. =_=).



Got lazier and lazier after I did Riza. Colouring become more chinchai. =_=